今天考的特别的不好,我真把自己看的太高了,今天考的两门,从昨天才正式开始看,而且ASS也没做过,自己脑子里总是在想不就那么点东西嘛,什么heat flow,就那样,步骤简单,顺着就能顺下来.今天考试傻眼了,选择题没有一道做出来答案,全是蒙的,我没办法了!!我真的要疯了.我也不知道怎么办了.然后,问答题,2道.我疯,没啥好说的了.怎么着也没想到能考到这么差.我看我是说什么应什么啊.真正进入ENGG之后想,没问题,我不用怎么学成绩也不可能太低,OK,老天帮我实现了,但是是相反的,成绩低到2.5..然后自己的标准也就下降了.然后和旁边的朋友说,没关系,一般不会FAIL的,不用担心FAIL.我靠,他吗的,这次老天又帮我实现,相反的,肯定会让我FAIL科.每当我小看一件事情的时候,那件事情就会反着我做,而且发生的特别的快..自己怎么现在一点上进心都没有呢?其实,刚才考完,心理在想,我将来一定不会再这样了。可是,这种话已经对自己说过多少遍了?有用吗?感觉很对不起我爸和我妈,..心情很失落.我现在真的很想天天学习,不出去玩了,也不看电视剧了.讨厌,我看的电视剧真没用.那里面的问题总是很容易解决,好的情况总会很快出现.哎呀,终于知道电视剧不能全信啊~现实啊,残酷啊.我不知道现在后悔还有没有用,但是，我真的知道错了.如果老天这次原谅我了,我不会说我下次肯定行,只是说我一定会尽力.不再小看任何事情.在我面前有几条不同的路.FAIL课,要不就是2nd qualifying year.(再严重点就是被踢出去.讨厌,不能这么着吧?)说实话,如果让我进2nd qualifying year,也OK,反正上的课都一样.说让自己想开点,可能吗?心理肯定受不了.我原来考不好总是在想可能蒙的题也能对很多,但是,呵呵,不可能,再也不能让自己有那种侥幸的心理了.因为每次出来的成绩都很差.也许,真应该定性了,不过好难啊~!

    2night, melissa S has been eliminated, i am so sad .i kind of like her , probably b/c  she looks like Eva and she is beautiful. at the same time, i dunnt know, i don't like her that much, i really don't know. I believe she is mean to Chelsie(i hope i spell it right), and she hates her. obviously that she wants Chelsie to be eliminated, b/c she thinks Chelsie is not deserve on the stage and she is not a good dancer. i definately agree with chelsie that she says everyone is trying so hard and that everyone is deserve on the stage. Right, i can tell all of them are trying their best to be the next pussycat dolls, they wanna be on the stage. Like, Chelsie is not a good dancer, but she trys so hard to dance better under that kind of pressure. Chelsie phoned her father when she was frustrated, she cried.(by the way, i saw  lots crying in this show, but it's not fake..) she had no idea of how to keep going (it reminds me of calling my parents when i was so freaking out!!!#%$@^-^).....

   and who do u think will be the next pussycat doll???? just have a guess here, Melisssa R and Asia are the biggest competitors in this "game"(it's not a game, but i like calling the competition as a game), i guess the final winner will be Asia. (and both of them r  just 18 years old. C'mon,,, they r just 18~~see??? and i am 20, but i am doing nothing here, it's kind of sad) Actually, at the beginning, i dunnt like Asia, she looks like she is not friendly and she is a little bit mean. But after watching them for several rounds, yep, she is really the best one in the competition. And she improves a lot, she sings, dances and performs much better than she was some weeks ago. In addition, she is really the most confident girl on the stage. (sure, she is also worried about if she will be eliminated after her performance, it happens to everyone)

   but,, honestly, i like Melissa R best, i like her from  last 2  rounds. I didn't pay much attention on her before, she is not standing out. But i think she is the cutiest girl  among them, i like cute girls..hoooohooooo~~~!!!!she is also very strong and friendly. being honest, she is not that good and strong as Asia, i don't know, i just feel it, but i cannot tell why. probably from their performance. Asia is the strongest and most confident girl as i said.

   finally, i guess chelsie will be eliminated in the next round. and Asia will be the winner. any other guesses?? tell me~~

 

   ok, come back 2 me. i wanna tell myself, just try it, try my best. i try it, if i still cannot do it, then i won't be regret. don't worry about that if i try it, but i still cannot do it... it's ok~~at least i try it~~真恶心,告诉自己多少遍了??but, for now, i really wanna get in some competitions and i really wanna try sth so hard, i like the feeling of that. but~~????

现在凌晨3:12分依然还没有睡觉~在复习,我就再想哦,为什么都是在其末前一天才能把整个学期积攒下来的东西全看完?

原来一直在想啊,我这个周末肯定看完,可是现在都拖到考试前一天晚上奋清了...这个叫做难受啊~

这个学期已经有3天晚上都是在早上4点以后睡觉了,弄的身体不好,皮肤不好，最重要的MMD吃的太多了,胖了~~

真是的,其中考试之前出勤率为85.99999%,,其中之后出勤率50%,,,而学习的时间呢?为10%,,这样怎么能行呢?

但是为什么总是在考试前一天总结出这个结果呢?我是真后悔原来不学习啊,真地啊~~但是,如实,现在后悔确实晚了啊

天啊,我真不想挂科的,,我的银子啊,不能白白的没了啊!!!!决定再一次去找PROF TALK去.

还有,太相信自己了,记得上个学期其末的时候决定这个学期一定要好好学习,很相信自己的毅力,但是,现实啊,残酷啊~

怎么可能说学习就学习?从一开始就没怎么学过,后来越来越松懈了,,完蛋了~~~而且是个大鸡蛋!!!

哎呀,,真叫那个讨厌啊~记得平时自己说的最多的就是减肥和学习,反而,就会嘴上说,行动呢??都没有!!!!

我真的以后得少说点话了,那样可能更能多做一些事情~~~

哎,,能怎么办呢?凉拌吧~~~

最恶心的是什么呢?CHEM 243, EN PH 131一个学习下来,没翘过几节课,可是呢?成绩确实最低的两个~~

原因所在,就是因为跟DAVE一个班,作业都抄他的了,以后再也不能和认识的人,尤其比我学习好的人在一个班了

那样,我的惰性就是在抗不住了,就开抄了..

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